okay… here goes the blog i’ve been trying to post for about 2 months now.
After going to the Dr. about my numb feet, legs and left arm, I got to experience an MRI for the first time. After the MRI, I was referred to a neurologist. Then I got to undergo another MRI, some blood work, and a chest X-ray. Then I was diagnosed with MS and spiraled into panic mode. Eight weeks and a spinal tap later, I am going to be okay. Granted I still have MS, but I have successfully exited panic mode. I am still working; I am still driving. I am going to do this damn play if it kills me. :)
Good news:
We can still have children; I should even have a pretty normal pregnancy. We’ve decided to give it a year or two, but we were planning on doing that anyway. Ben isn’t even done with school until next summer.
I started my medication about 6 weeks ago. The earlier you start meds, the better.
I’m young. The earlier you catch it, and start meds, the better.
I have an awesome support system. I had to stay in bed for a few days after the spinal tap, and I had lunch delivered every day. We had a few movie watching parties in the guest room, too. Have I mentioned how amazing my husband is? I am blessed to have him in my life.
I have a super-fabulous neurology team. Dr. Reed and his assistant, Rhonda are both MS certified and have been super supportive. I
My medication is injectable, but I have a one-button Auto-Inject: the most amazing piece of plastic I’ve ever known. I give myself my shots without passing out. I don’t see the needle, and it doesn’t even hurt too much.
Wow. Lots of good news, and I could go on.
Bad News:
I have MS.
eh. could be worse.
Sometimes, the depression is overwhelming. Sometimes, I get worn out way too early, but if I eat enough and sleep enough, even the bad stuff isn’t so bad. I have spent enough time dwelling on the can’ts and nevers. I am putting my faith in God to carry me through this. I know He isn’t going to give me anything I can’t handle, and that the reasons I am searching for will appear in time.
On a slightly happier note, The Play opens 2 weeks from today! I have a costume so horrid, it’s hysterical. That in and of itself should make you all want to come out and see it. Maybe that will give you something more exciting to blog about. :)
